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I'm feeling pretty fucking lousy right now. And a good majority of it is my fault and/or a product of my choices today.
I was supposed to go to Milwalkee today to pick up my ID, but its a 2+ hour round trip so I was planning on taking it early in the day and getting back in time for good RP and possibly getting this damned Chibi-cast picture of In the Shadows atleast inked. That sure as hell went bust. Yes, the whole thing. I didn't get to sleep until 4 AGAIN. I tried to wake up when my alarm went off but it was like my head wouldn't even lift off the pillow. It was 11 for goddess' sake, not that early. I've felt like shit most of the day because of it and I'm pretty sure my sleeping scedual has offically gone back to screwed over mode.
Matt reminded me that it was the first so I canceled my trip, not wanting to take it at 1 in the afternoon anyway, and stayed around for RPing. Wound up playing OOC peacemaker as the inevetable happened when Erich (Matt's character) and Adghal (Poppy's character) met up. I don't need to say how much those two hate eachother OOCly, and how that's translating in to IC loathing. Yeah, I know, I don't have to play peacemaker to anyone but I chose to because I also chose to keep the friends I have rather then take sides.
Half way durring all this Manny comes home and gives me my mail. Bright green card from MetroOne, the job I've longed for ever since getting up here. Rejected. Why do they send those little things anyway? Its just as bad if not worse as getting a boot to the head. Only its with a smile. Yeah. Worse. I'm horribly crushed. I thought I was good enough, but pssh, lets piss on Jeni's ambitions, okay? Its not like they've ever mattered. Its not like I have any self esteem left. Still my fault anyway. I fucked up the testing. So, there we go.
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I was supposed to go to Milwalkee today to pick up my ID, but its a 2+ hour round trip so I was planning on taking it early in the day and getting back in time for good RP and possibly getting this damned Chibi-cast picture of In the Shadows atleast inked. That sure as hell went bust. Yes, the whole thing. I didn't get to sleep until 4 AGAIN. I tried to wake up when my alarm went off but it was like my head wouldn't even lift off the pillow. It was 11 for goddess' sake, not that early. I've felt like shit most of the day because of it and I'm pretty sure my sleeping scedual has offically gone back to screwed over mode.
Matt reminded me that it was the first so I canceled my trip, not wanting to take it at 1 in the afternoon anyway, and stayed around for RPing. Wound up playing OOC peacemaker as the inevetable happened when Erich (Matt's character) and Adghal (Poppy's character) met up. I don't need to say how much those two hate eachother OOCly, and how that's translating in to IC loathing. Yeah, I know, I don't have to play peacemaker to anyone but I chose to because I also chose to keep the friends I have rather then take sides.
Half way durring all this Manny comes home and gives me my mail. Bright green card from MetroOne, the job I've longed for ever since getting up here. Rejected. Why do they send those little things anyway? Its just as bad if not worse as getting a boot to the head. Only its with a smile. Yeah. Worse. I'm horribly crushed. I thought I was good enough, but pssh, lets piss on Jeni's ambitions, okay? Its not like they've ever mattered. Its not like I have any self esteem left. Still my fault anyway. I fucked up the testing. So, there we go.
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