JeniOctavia

Or not.

Seems this year has done spectacularly to crank out the stress for everyone. I can safely say I don't think I've been this on edge for such an extended period of time before in my life. Sort of my fault for stupidly picking up two studio classes at once, though.

And I know I'm not the only one feeling this.

I always get depressed during the holidays. It's a difficult time for me, remembering people that are gone now. It's still physically painful to know that I can't enjoy unwrapping presents and putting up all those old decorations with her, and our last Christmas together, small as it was, is still in my mind.

I think that was the last time I smile and mean it. And that's a really terrible thing to realize...

I would be lying if I said I'm not struggling right now. But a part of me wants to think I'm struggling less because I have my extended family.

I know everything isn't wonderful shiny right now between everyone, and I know it may never be again between some people, but I still love my family no matter what's going on.

In a little over a month I'll be turning 26. It'll be a new year, full of new chances, so right now I can only hope that the passing of time will begin to heal wounds both new and old.

I love you guys.

Alright folks. I know we're two months away, but since I have school and crap I'd like to get this out of the way.

What do my buddies want for Christmas? It's all going to be hand made stuff this year, so here's the choices. Please be specific when you leave your reply. Replies will be screened. Addresses will be needed.

Simple art of your choice - basically colored pencil or marker drawings, not horribly overly complicated.

Paper book marks with beads - stamped bookmarks with beaded tassels on the end. The stamps will either be small ones hand carved by me (so a simple design) or little bought ones.

Bracelets, necklaces, or earrings - Bracelets will be either weaved or strung, necklaces will be either strung or wire twisted, earrings will be wire twisted.

Or if you can't think of anything, I'll just send you a nice Christmas card. :3

Let me know!

Love to all~