Consuming...
Apr. 2nd, 2004 12:49 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jenioctaviaClass was good today. Professor Hamm is awesome and I think my classmates actually like me.
But...I'm really not thinking about that right now. See, I got another call today...
Gall blatter infection, possible heart valve problem that may require major surgery, and dyalsis graft has to be removed. All this means that they're going to have to move her to a downtown Portland hospital.
I am...so..so...SO very scared right now. I don't...I have no real way of knowing if she's going to pull out of this. As it stands, heart surgery is a major ordeal, and there's the possiblility she might not be strong enough to recover from it.
I'm tired of being alone...I'm tired of worrying...I feel...so forsaken right now...
I'm questioning everything. Everything. Why has She not heard my prayers? All I ask is that Mom be alright...what is the sense in taking her from me now? What is the purpose...
I don't know what to do...
But...I'm really not thinking about that right now. See, I got another call today...
Gall blatter infection, possible heart valve problem that may require major surgery, and dyalsis graft has to be removed. All this means that they're going to have to move her to a downtown Portland hospital.
I am...so..so...SO very scared right now. I don't...I have no real way of knowing if she's going to pull out of this. As it stands, heart surgery is a major ordeal, and there's the possiblility she might not be strong enough to recover from it.
I'm tired of being alone...I'm tired of worrying...I feel...so forsaken right now...
I'm questioning everything. Everything. Why has She not heard my prayers? All I ask is that Mom be alright...what is the sense in taking her from me now? What is the purpose...
I don't know what to do...
