jenioctavia

I'm so exausted right now I'm not even sure how I'm making coherent sentences...though I can already tell my spelling is horrible...
I haven't slept yet, though I would very much like to be doing that right now...

It seems that 4:30 in the morning is a good time for all hell to break loose in one's life.

Taking my little break down that I gave to Matt, here's what happened:

She (Mom) said she'd been hurting...yeh know..sick for the past few days. But the whole time she was coherent and I thought she'd be fine. Well I couldn't sleep last night, so I stayed awake until 3, but I heard her get up and go to the bathroom a few times while I was awake. I finally laid down but couldn't fall asleep. I could hear her in the living room making whining noises and moving around alot but I just put my headphones on and tried to go to sleep. She opened my door and turned on my light at about 4:30, and sat down, started talking to me. I couldn't understand what she was saying, it was completely muddled and a bunch of words I didn't understand. She went back out to the living room and I tried to go back to sleep, and I heard her fall. Took me about 10 minutes to get her up, the whole time she was still rambling and i couldn't understand her. I finally got her to the couch and called 911. She kept trying to stand up but couldn't, and was just rambling on...

By the time the parimedics arrived she was freaking out and so I was I. She...she thought they were hurting her and she kept screaming for me but I didn't know what to do. And she refused to sit still. It took them a half an hour or so to get her to the ambulence. I was there from 5-ish on until Carol came to get me...last I saw of her she was still fidgity and mumbling and they couldn't get an IV in her arm. They didn't see any reason for me to stay since I could barely walk myself...

So far I haven't heard anything, and I'm still trying to get a hold of Mike. I've been in tears on and off since this all started, and my eyes hurt so bad the entire screen is blurry. I may try to sleep later, but no gaurentees my consious will even let me...

I will keep everyone posted from here as much as possible...