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Jan. 20th, 2004 04:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jenioctaviaI called Gen. She gave me Bill's pager number, but at the same time she didn't give me a whole lot of hope. She said she was thinking positive thoughts for me, and would put in a good word for me, but she also mentioned that fiveday-ing some one usually means termination...
I talked to Bill, and, even though he didn't say the same thing, he still told me it was up to Home Office. I'm gonna go in tomorrow with something resembling a plea on my part typed up, but my heart keeps sinking more and more as the night wears on...
I'm scared...probably more scared then I've been in months. Lives are depending on my income, and here I am, stumbling and falling flat on my face again right when it matters most that I -don't-.
Is this how its going to end...?
I'm just not sure of anything anymore...
Just make it go away...
I talked to Bill, and, even though he didn't say the same thing, he still told me it was up to Home Office. I'm gonna go in tomorrow with something resembling a plea on my part typed up, but my heart keeps sinking more and more as the night wears on...
I'm scared...probably more scared then I've been in months. Lives are depending on my income, and here I am, stumbling and falling flat on my face again right when it matters most that I -don't-.
Is this how its going to end...?
I'm just not sure of anything anymore...
Just make it go away...
