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Apr. 22nd, 2004
Just because I can. o.o
Apr. 22nd, 2004 01:31 pmThese are all my Hogwarts characters, full names and thier stats.
And holy crap Chiroay's even MORE of a slut!
*chokes* @.e I don't want to date Harry! I wanna date Aaron! AAAARRROOON. ;.;
Since when is Devlin gay? o.o;;;;
Ping is the offical slut? Apparently so, even with a meager 23% shagged. >.>;
Well she is deaf...guess that can attribute to her blowing up the potions room.
Go Raimi. o_o;
And last but not least...me, the default muggleborn Ravenclaw. x)
They hate me? MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!
And holy crap Chiroay's even MORE of a slut!
*chokes* @.e I don't want to date Harry! I wanna date Aaron! AAAARRROOON. ;.;
Since when is Devlin gay? o.o;;;;
Ping is the offical slut? Apparently so, even with a meager 23% shagged. >.>;
Well she is deaf...guess that can attribute to her blowing up the potions room.
Go Raimi. o_o;
And last but not least...me, the default muggleborn Ravenclaw. x)
They hate me? MISSION ACCOMPLISHED!
You wonder why no one likes you. You wonder why everyone pushes you away. Why everyone leaves and why those who tolerate you eventually snap.
Let me count the ways.
1 - You're a damned hypocryte. You whine and bitch and moan about wanting something back, and the moment that you have this something back, you start complaining again. Its annoying. Its redundant. Its tiresome. Extremely.
2 - You find a reason to hate EVERYONE. It doesn't matter what they do, you'll find a reason to hate them. If I didn't know any better, I'd think that you hated me too. I mean really, I did not know it was humanly possible for some one to hate so many people until I met you.
3 - I ask you several times to respect one wish and one wish alone in this hard time that I'm going through, and you refuse to. And when I ask that you stop, you get huffy, saying that no one is listening to you. That's a load of bull. I've listened to your problems for a YEAR now, and done everything in my power to help you to the best of my ability. Now I have a problem that is, on the grand scale, MUCH bigger and important then yours and you are doing very little to help me.
4 - You are not happy unless you have something to bitch about, and even then you're miserable. You will never be happy. But you don't have to drag everyone down with you. Some people don't WANT to be dragged down. I know I'm one of them. But that doesn't stop you from trying.
5 - You take everything personally. EVERY LITTLE FUCKING THING. Doesn't matter what it is. If I tell you that the possibility of me leaving is no reflection on you as a person, it goes in one ear and out the other, and an hour later I hear you saying "Everyone leaves, its all my fault"
6 - And that brings me to the pity trips. We all have problems, dude. Wake up and smell the goddamned Starbucks coffee. But no one wants to be around a wet blanket that is constantly moping and whining about it. GUESS WHAT. I figured this out, its about fucking time you do too.
Need anymore? Yes? Oh, please, let me continue. I'm not done yet.
7 - You KNOW these people are my friends. And yet you are so quick to write them off as liars, cheaters, bitches, sluts, bastards, and manipulative immature children. NEWS FLASH. Just because you don't like them doesn't mean that I want to hear this bullshit about them. I see people the way I want to see them and I am not going to take sides just because you're a very oppinionated person.
8 - This isn't highschool anymore. We don't live in a soap opera. Get. Over. The. Fucking. Drama. Look at me. My mother is DYING right now. Lying in a hospital bed barely able to breathe. Do you see me sitting in corners going "My life is such shit that I don't deserve to be normal blah blah blah."? NO. I cry, I deal, and I keep living my life the way it was meant to be.
9 - I know you care about me. That's a given. I'm the only person you haven't banned, screamed obscenities at, or driven away. But open your eyes, please. Look at the words I'm writing and take them for what they're worth because this is the honest to goddess truth. You still hurt me with the things that you do. You act like you care for a while and then the spotlight is back on you and your problems again. That kills me. Where am I supposed to go when you're ranting about your issues and how much you hate everyone? You were supposed to be the one I could turn to in my time of need, and look. Its here. RIGHT HERE. But you're so lost on your soapbox that you're no where to be found.
10 - Two words. Emotional massochist. Need an explination? Good. Here it is. You attract great followings then destroy everything on purpose. You cause yourself emotional pain because you think that is the ONLY way to live. Look around. You'll see that its not.
I could continue this list forever. I really could.
But know this. Everything I've said here is an accumilation of everything that I have seen, heard, felt, and experinced for an entire year, and I needed to get it out. That doesn't mean I love you any less, Matt. That will never, ever change.
But it does mean that I am one very upset sister right now.
Something needs to change
or something is going to break
and it will be me.
Let me count the ways.
1 - You're a damned hypocryte. You whine and bitch and moan about wanting something back, and the moment that you have this something back, you start complaining again. Its annoying. Its redundant. Its tiresome. Extremely.
2 - You find a reason to hate EVERYONE. It doesn't matter what they do, you'll find a reason to hate them. If I didn't know any better, I'd think that you hated me too. I mean really, I did not know it was humanly possible for some one to hate so many people until I met you.
3 - I ask you several times to respect one wish and one wish alone in this hard time that I'm going through, and you refuse to. And when I ask that you stop, you get huffy, saying that no one is listening to you. That's a load of bull. I've listened to your problems for a YEAR now, and done everything in my power to help you to the best of my ability. Now I have a problem that is, on the grand scale, MUCH bigger and important then yours and you are doing very little to help me.
4 - You are not happy unless you have something to bitch about, and even then you're miserable. You will never be happy. But you don't have to drag everyone down with you. Some people don't WANT to be dragged down. I know I'm one of them. But that doesn't stop you from trying.
5 - You take everything personally. EVERY LITTLE FUCKING THING. Doesn't matter what it is. If I tell you that the possibility of me leaving is no reflection on you as a person, it goes in one ear and out the other, and an hour later I hear you saying "Everyone leaves, its all my fault"
6 - And that brings me to the pity trips. We all have problems, dude. Wake up and smell the goddamned Starbucks coffee. But no one wants to be around a wet blanket that is constantly moping and whining about it. GUESS WHAT. I figured this out, its about fucking time you do too.
Need anymore? Yes? Oh, please, let me continue. I'm not done yet.
7 - You KNOW these people are my friends. And yet you are so quick to write them off as liars, cheaters, bitches, sluts, bastards, and manipulative immature children. NEWS FLASH. Just because you don't like them doesn't mean that I want to hear this bullshit about them. I see people the way I want to see them and I am not going to take sides just because you're a very oppinionated person.
8 - This isn't highschool anymore. We don't live in a soap opera. Get. Over. The. Fucking. Drama. Look at me. My mother is DYING right now. Lying in a hospital bed barely able to breathe. Do you see me sitting in corners going "My life is such shit that I don't deserve to be normal blah blah blah."? NO. I cry, I deal, and I keep living my life the way it was meant to be.
9 - I know you care about me. That's a given. I'm the only person you haven't banned, screamed obscenities at, or driven away. But open your eyes, please. Look at the words I'm writing and take them for what they're worth because this is the honest to goddess truth. You still hurt me with the things that you do. You act like you care for a while and then the spotlight is back on you and your problems again. That kills me. Where am I supposed to go when you're ranting about your issues and how much you hate everyone? You were supposed to be the one I could turn to in my time of need, and look. Its here. RIGHT HERE. But you're so lost on your soapbox that you're no where to be found.
10 - Two words. Emotional massochist. Need an explination? Good. Here it is. You attract great followings then destroy everything on purpose. You cause yourself emotional pain because you think that is the ONLY way to live. Look around. You'll see that its not.
I could continue this list forever. I really could.
But know this. Everything I've said here is an accumilation of everything that I have seen, heard, felt, and experinced for an entire year, and I needed to get it out. That doesn't mean I love you any less, Matt. That will never, ever change.
But it does mean that I am one very upset sister right now.
Something needs to change
or something is going to break
and it will be me.
