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[jenioctavia]

First off, many hugs, prayers, and good energy to shayachern and moonlightgryph. You're in my thoughts you two. <3

Anyway...this is gonna be an interesting one...*takes a deep breath*

I went to bed at 9-ish last night, watched Ever After and then passed out until 2. I couldn't get back to sleep so I gave up and watched another really cute movie called Prince Charming. What is it with me and romances lately? Yuck. e_e; Oh well, still good movies.
Got a shower after that, got dressed and sat out in Imag talking with random furres. Then, while having a perfectly civil conversation with one named Judas, this idiot Durandal (Originally Liko'ral, the idiot known for his soapbox-corner-sitting-Imag antics) makes a comment that I don't particularly care for, so I snap back at him in my usual early morning retorhic "You should be shot for even thinking something like that." Thus starts a nice argument. Click Judas Crowe: I'm not the person someone would want to brag about doing drugs to.
Durandal: Those little paper shredder things are cool, almost the same entertainment level as in-sink garbage disposals. By the way, you can't fit a cat in either.
You say, "Who would want to anyway?"
Judas Crowe: I know people who it has affected, and I would literally beat my friends into a pulp if they started hard drugs,
Lapisia: ok thanks
You say, "...you should be shot for even attempting or THINKING that, Dura. Really. Animal cruelty is not cool."
Durandal: Oh wow, knee-jerk reaction.
You say, "The worst thing I do is smoke, despite the fact that I know I shouldn't. But, bleh. Its my body..."
Judas Crowe: Ya, it is, so treat it good so you dont hack up a lung in a few years.
Judas Crowe: I'd rather someone smoke pot then smoke cigs.
Judas Crowe: Atleast pot doesnt kill them, just makes them a @$!?ing moron. lol
You say, "That's what quitting for the fifteenth time is for. >.>;"
Durandal: You should probably start smoking again.
Durandal: Maybe you wouldn't make such stupid statements as "OMG ANIMAL KKKRUELTY"
You say, "And I'm really trying. I hadn't had one in almost three days until that whole thing with Mom."
You say, "Know what, Dura, you're not even worth the time to type a retort to that. ^^;"
Judas Crowe: I agree with Jeni.
Durandal: I'm sure I'm not.
Jeni bows. =)
Durandal: Nevermind that your reaction was totally unwarranted, and only served to demonstrate your low IQ.
Durandal: Seriously, start smoking again, get lung cancer, and refuse treatment.
Judas Crowe: Atleast it's not rock bottom you @$!?ing moron :-)
Durandal: I reverse rock bottom for you, Judas.
You say, "Actually my IQ never came in to question, but whatever. If you want to think that I'm dumb, so be it. Its your oppinion alone and it does not matter to me what so ever."
Judas Crowe: Aww, you hurt my feelings Duran Duran.
You say, "I hope you have a wonderful life judging the worth of others you deem to be below you."
Durandal: Jeni: ...you should be shot for even attempting or THINKING that, Dura. Really. Animal cruelty is not cool.
Durandal: Jeni: ...you should be shot for even attempting or THINKING that, Dura. Really. Animal cruelty is not cool.
Durandal: Jeni: ...you should be shot for even attempting or THINKING that, Dura. Really. Animal cruelty is not cool.
Judas Crowe: Spam too?
Durandal: Oh god yes, just feel the intelligence oozing from you, Jeni?
Judas Crowe: Oh, sorry bout that, but you lost.
You say, "Like I said, its your oppinion. I know my worth and where I stand in this world."
Durandal: And yes, I have a wonderful life judging people who are below me.
You say, "I can see that."
Judas Crowe: Dura, leave the hermit crabs alone.
Durandal: Really? Let me know how that career at McDonalds works out, Jeni.
You say, "I'm sure you'll be happy when Karma comes around and kicks you in the $!?. And sorry, I did my time at fast food. Done and over with."
Judas Crowe pokes the turkey "Make the mean old moron stfu?"
Durandal: You mean you got fired?
Durandal: Ouch. Very ouch.
You say, "No I quit."
Durandal: And Karma is a myth.
You say, "To go work for Adobe Systems."
Durandal: Held by the weak.
Durandal: As what, the janitor?
Judas Crowe: Karma is all to real.
You say, "Customer service. And being firm in my beliefs does not make me weak."
Judas Crowe: You're going to get a nice kick in the $!? during the long run.
Durandal: You resort to your beliefs to give you some form of comfort. That's pretty weak.
Durandal: So wow Jeni, you went from one minimum wage job to another? That's a hell of an improvement.
Judas Crowe: What oh-mighty job do you have Duran?
You say, "I don't even know why I'm justfying myself to you. There's no logic in your statements, no truth. You don't know me, so keep on rambling. I already stated what I beleived to be important to me."
[ Crystal Fires whispers, "will you trade your phoe for a pair of butters?" to you. ]
Durandal: Irony Jeni - You don't know me either and yet you freely declare that Karma will come and bite me in the $!?.
[ You whisper "I already have butters, Sorry." to Crystal Fires. ]
[ Crystal Fires whispers, "ok" to you. ]
Judas Crowe: You're being a jackass.
You say, "Because of your choice to judge people you don't know. I'm not sitting here making judgements about you. I'm stating what I see. For all I know you could be a wonderful person outside of this game. That's not up to me to decide."
Durandal: Riiiiiight.
You say, "You know what, you probably are! Kudos to you. And I'm sure you have a wonderful life at that, and a much better job then I ever will."
Durandal: You're correct.
Durandal: I also look more attractive physically.
Judas Crowe: You alive turkey?
You say, "But, that still doesn't justify what you're doing here."
Durandal: And I'm also mentally superior.
Durandal: Yes it does.
Crystal Fires: Are my butters and classics perdy?
Dizziowl: Yah.
Crystal Fires: Yay
Judas Crowe slurps the turkey.
You say, "No, not really. Everyone comes from different walks of life. Doesn't make them worse or better then you. The person on welfare probably has a better heart then the Hollywood actor, or vica verca. I don't decide that. And you shouldn't either."
Durandal: How does that decide worth in society?
Durandal: Morality isn't the only factor governing ones worth.
You say, "No, its not. But it should still play a part."
Durandal: And indeed it is. However we are all a sum of our parts.
Durandal: So when you display yourself to be an intellectual cripple, it detracts from your worth.
Durandal: It's really not that hard.
You say, "I'm not an intellectual cripple. I'm handicapped, but atleast I'm trying by bettering myself through learning and accepting my own follies."
Durandal: Handicapped? Mentally?
You say, "Yes."
Judas Crowe: In my opinion, Jeni is an overall better person then you.
Durandal: So you're a retard?
You say, "See, that's what I mean. I say I'm handicapped and you instantly brush me off as a retard."
You say, "Would you even have listened if I told you what my problem is? No. You're too comfortable living in a world of sterotypes."
Durandal: You said "Yes" when I asked if you were mentally handicapped.
Durandal: There aren't very many forms of mental handicap in the world.
You say, "There are varying degrees of it."
Durandal: Yes, they'res "mildly retarded" and there's "seriously retarded"
Durandal: But it's still "retarded"
You say, "Delexia is a handicap, so is ADD, and other learning disorders."
Durandal: ADD is a joke.
You say, "Like I said, you're willing to live in a world of cultural sterotypes if it doesn't shatter your own sense of self worth."
Judas Crowe: Duran, you're a joke right now, an over told one that becomes quite bothersome.
Durandal: Jeni, you're still not answering my question.
Durandal: What is your mental handicap?
You say, "I just said it, and ADD is not a joke."
Durandal: ADD?
Durandal: HAH!
Durandal: Oh god, hahahahahaha.
Durandal: Yes, you are so handicapped.
Judas Crowe: Dizzi, is he such a @$!?ing moron?
Durandal: Darling, I've been diagnosed with ADD. I've also been diagosed with bipolar.
Durandal: *diagnosed
Durandal: Both were incorrect.
Judas Crowe: ADD is a handicap, I've peer tutored classes with students that have that.
You say, "So have I, but you know what, it actually did screw me up in school. I barely graduated because of it."
Judas Crowe: They can't concentrate on their work at all so they don't get anything done.
Durandal: That sounds more like a problem with you that you're trying to pass off to your "handicap"
Jeni smirks.
Durandal: The sign of an intelligent person is overcoming their handicaps, not resorting to them as an excuse for their poor choices in life.
You say, "Actually I was simply wanting to see what you would say."
You say, "I know its not a handicap, my screw up in school was my own fault."
Durandal: Sure, keep backpedalling.
Judas Crowe: Duran, you're quite moronic, I'm sure anyone listening to this conversation would agree.
You say, "He's not a moron, Judas. He's just happy on his pedistal, spitting on those he thinks contribute nothing to society."
You say, "He's actually quite smart. Just arrogant. Very, very arrogant."
Durandal: Indeed I am.
Durandal: I'm a taxpayer.
Durandal: I pay for the poor masses to eat.
You say, "I pay my taxes too."
Durandal: Yes but that's not why I think I'm better than you.
Judas Crowe: Moronic as in acting stupid.
Durandal: You may act like an idiot, you may sound like an idiot...but that doesn't fool me, you are indeed an idiot.
You say, "Whatever your reasoning, it doesn't effect me. I know who I am, what I have to give to society. And you know what? I am happy. THAT is what matters to me. Idiot, simpleton, handicapped, depressed, or otherwise. I know where I'm going and I like my life for what it really is: a life."
Judas Crowe: Even though I'm not an idiot, I would rather be an idiot for eternity then live a day of arrogant, selfish and acting like an @$!?%&*s.
You say, "With that said, I feel like a coffee. Judas, wonderful talking with you. Dura. Have a lovely day."
Judas Crowe: Cya Jeni
Durandal: Judas, you're an idiot. Sorry to break it to you.
Judas Crowe: How so?
Durandal: I have Atari, NES, SNES, N64, GBC, CPU, PSX and PS2. Alot of games... Roughly between 150-200 (I had games before I was born, so, ya.)
Durandal: WATCH OUT!
Durandal: JUDAS HAD GAMES BEFORE HE WAS BORN.
Durandal: WHATEVER THE HELL THAT MEANS.
You say, "And I'm happy. I would rather live a lifetime in stupidity and happiness then an eternity in arrogance."
You say, "Your life is yours, mine is mine. And I want coffee."
Judas Crowe: I never said I had games before I was born.
Judas Crowe: Don't put words into my mouth.
Durandal: That was taken from your website, genius
You say, "So I'll be off now. *idles*" if you want to see the conversation. I didn't do any editing to it, and I started it just after something Judas and I were talking about.

I found the whole thing laughable in the end. I made my point, stated it, and it clearly pissed him off that he couldn't break me by his incenssantly calling me and idiot. I said I was happy, neive or not, and that's all that mattered to me. And its true. But the other thing I happen to find funny is myself...how I reacted to it. Even just a year ago I would have been up in arms, spouting cursewords and nearly screaming my oppinion at that moron, then getting my feathers all in a bunch about it later on, probably letting me bother me all day. Today, despite everything that's happened, I just let it roll off my back. I snickered that he couldn't get me riled despite his best efforts. Liko dear, its time to come off your pedistal. ;)

After all that I went and got my breakfast and some really good Berry-White chocolate cappichino up at 7-11. The morning was cold yet beautiful, the birds chirping and the sun shining. A very good morning indeed. When I got back Matt was on, and I got to talk to Judas somemore without the lovely intturuption of Dura.

I'm going to Clackamas about noonish, going up to the hospital after that and hopefully meeting Mike up there, which will be nice since I haven't seen him in a while, even if the circumstances are a little less then perfect. Then I'll probably just come home and veg with the last of the pizza. La~

So I end this LJ post on this particular note:

I may be a bit nieve, and even sheltered for some one my age, and granted my IQ isn't wonderfully high, but you know what. I know where I am in life, I like the direction I'm going in, I'm VERY comfortable in my beliefs, and I happy.

I am goddess, damn it. xD <3