It wound up being a fiasco.
What was supposed to be a few friends getting together for a fun time wound up hurting some one I care very deeply about. I don't want to say I 'took the wrong side', but I didn't look at everyone in the aftermath.
I haven't called her because I've been afraid to. Subconsiously I knew that she would have a hard time speaking to me, possibly because she was already so cold the day after. I confirmed it today by reading an entry.
I ranted to a friend a few days after, saying I didn't understand why she was so upset. I didn't WANT to understand, but now I do. Maybe our morals don't allign perfectly, but I can atleast understand where she's coming from now.
And in the end...
it was ALL my fault. Maybe I didn't participate in the act, but I was the one who set it up.
The guilt falls on me heavily.
If I could retract it, I would. I didn't know...
but how do you say "I'm sorry" to some one who's so far away...
Fuck, Ti...
I didn't know...