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I realized today...well yesterday actually, while talking to Matt in the OOC area of WF, how completely ironic this situation is...
Back when I was in highschool, when our little 'group' got started, Beth wound up being appointed the unoffical leader. And...well...things happened that really shouldn't happen to teenagers. Needless to say that position became a bit more offical then it was originally intended. She tried her best to keep everything together and keep us from losing our heads when we were needed...
I wound up getting kicked out the second year in to all this, my Junior year. I was sent to Portland. Of course while I was away, shit hit the fan more often then not. Fights started occuring more and more in the group, and I was left to try to counsel from threehundred miles away over IMs.
By the time I came back we had ruled that Beth go, Amanda making most of the 'she's becoming power hungry and jealous' claims. I followed, thinking it was all for the best. She became our worst enemy it seemed...everyone hated her for what she'd supposedly become..
Amanda became the new 'leader'...and it all went to hell from there. By two weeks before graduation everyone had turned on me for some odd reason, and the group had gone thier seperate ways. Amanda had become exactly, EXACTLY what she had accused Beth of being.
Amanda I still talk now days, but its on a very aquantaince basis. Most of the time she still manages to annoy the shit outta me.
I wound up moving across the street from Beth and a few months after graduation we finally started talking again. The subject's never come up about what exactly happened on that faithful day she turned and walked away from us, but there seems to be a mutal agreement between us that Amanda had made the claims to get power, and that forgiveness had been given either side from us.
Birdie and I no longer speak, Heather decided that she didn't much like me after my confession of being Bi. Lauren faded in to nonexistence, though her sister and I still talk sometimes. I have no idea what happened to Julie. Angel is a born again Christian, and we're still on very good speaking terms.
Anyway, I'm getting off my point...

Maybe I'm the only one, but I'm seeing striking simmilarties between this situation and the one with the guild. I'm sure there are plenty who would dissagree with me, or take a certain person's side...but you know what, I don't care...this is how I see things, and having been down this road once before I think I would be able to notice how alike things seem to be heading right now.

But, whatever...this is just my usual useless rant. I decided that after talking to Matt about it today that I should post it.

Its late...early rather...and I'm going to go try to sleep now. Maybe there'll be a more sensical post tomorrow. *shrugs*

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Would some one be so kind as to tell me how to join an LJ community? I can't figure it out.
*whines* I'll love you forever if you do! <3

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Sitting here munching on a Milkyway bar, listening to Revis...I have this urge to just ramble. But first off I need to start with something here, because I've been meaning to say it for a while now and I haven't got around to it.

I met some one...
Yes its another online relationship. And he's...younger then me. But from the moment we connected on the simple subject of Spike's death in Cowboy Bebop, I haven't cared.
On Furc he's known as Kamu-Kun. In the real world he's known as Garrett, and he lives in Florida. There's no way to know if our relationship is going to last or whatever, but I'm happy...and for once I'm not going to let this thing called life ruin that. He treats me well, he's uber uber sweet, and a cutie at that. ^_^;
So, yay Jeni's love life! I wanna ramble now.

I think I'm getting a rash on my arm. ._.; Its been red for two days now and itches like a bitch. I try lotion and that sings, I try ointment and it wears off after about an hour...NARF.

I have never done taxes before. This'll be my first year. For that matter I've never voted either, though I don't think -thats- going to change any time soon.

My computer sucks now. But it could just as easily be fixed if I got off my lazy Furc playing ass and did it for once. Sigh. Procrastination.

Ants in Oregon might as well be roaches. They're persistent little fuckers, won't freaking die, and can survive an Oregon winter. *smashes two more* GET OUT OF MY HOUSE YOU LITTLE PESTS. *twitch*

Milkyway bars taste better if they're darkchocolate. Makes the carmel less noticable.

What is the big deal about the difference between ground turkey and ground beef?! I don't taste anything different. ...my mother is such a whiner and SO picky.

I miss Casey. ._. He never comes on enough. And when he does he updates his LJ and then wanders away again. Growl. >_>;

Should I just leave Chiroay crazy, kill her off in some freak accident, or just make her come back to Hogwarts slightly parinoid? Decisions decisions...

My cell phone company sucks ass. They say they support SMS and will just bill me for the text messages and all this BS, but when I try to make the damned thing work so I can forward my AIM messages to it, I never recieve the confirmation. Die, Cellular One. Just die. I want Cingular, dern it. ;~;

I'm addicted to emoticons...o_o especially strange obscure ones that don't appear on AIM or any other messaging service and I have to type out by hand.

If I don't like carmel, does that make me as picky as my mother? No..wait...I'll still eat the damned candy bar, she won't even go near the chili with the ground turkey...>_>;;;

OMG I want my freaking animes...

Do Furcadia Pheonixes really look like big chickens?

If I have a mate now, why do I still think Valentines Day sucks? ...the world may never know.

My mother and I have the strangest conversations at times. We've even had arguments about Pepsi before. ...and wether or not 'abusive affection' is an oxymoronic statement...

Why is it that I've hired over fifteen people to work at White Forest and yet I NEVER have any bloody bartenders?!

Why do I make such a big deal over cleaning my room when two days later its trashed again? ...I'm an idiot, that's why. ._.;

Everyone's signing on and off of AIM...wee randomness.

If insanity is herditary, does that mean my great grandchildren will be born in a mental institution?

I bought fifty recordable CDs over a year ago and I've only used ten...odd...

Why does everyone know Harry Potter, but no one can remember who wrote the books? I wonder if that annoys J.K. at all...that would annoy me as a writer...

I really should get back to my writing. I call myself a writer and yet I haven't finished a story in almost two years. I am such a slacker.

I think I'm done now. o_o;

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