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Jan. 10th, 2004 07:19 pmToday I broke down at work.
Somewhere between the guy who got pissed off because I couldn't get him to components and decided to scream at me, and the fact that Tom decided to take off without telling me why he was leaving the phones for the sixth time that day, I just...snapped.
It must have been deathly aparent on my face that I was just going to go postal, that or Gen heard me and the customer arguing, because she came over, grabbed my sholder and nearly yanked me away from the phone, telling me to "go take a bathroom break" with this look of 'Sorry but you need it.'
So...I ran. I ran to the bathroom with my head down as the tears started falling not a foot past the E-Cage. I ran in to the employee bathroom upstairs and litterally collapsed on the ground sobbing loudly. I couldn't figure out why I was crying, what it was over, and for almost a half an hour I couldn't STOP crying. I lay there on the cold cement floor, door locked, tears falling on the ground as I stared blankly out in to space...
Now I'm in my usual after-sobbing-fest-mode of just being emotionally numb, but once I had come back to my desk finally I started writting a list, completely on a whim, of things I wanted to do before I'm 30. I figure I'll keep a copy of this post, with the list, and everytime I accopmlish something, or add something, I'll repost it...
These are long term goals to short term goals, and anything in between. I've never ever written a goal list that I meant, just done them for school asignments...but now, well...for some reason I felt like I needed it.
So...for your viewing pleasure, or whatever...
( All the things I want to do before I'm 30 )
Somewhere between the guy who got pissed off because I couldn't get him to components and decided to scream at me, and the fact that Tom decided to take off without telling me why he was leaving the phones for the sixth time that day, I just...snapped.
It must have been deathly aparent on my face that I was just going to go postal, that or Gen heard me and the customer arguing, because she came over, grabbed my sholder and nearly yanked me away from the phone, telling me to "go take a bathroom break" with this look of 'Sorry but you need it.'
So...I ran. I ran to the bathroom with my head down as the tears started falling not a foot past the E-Cage. I ran in to the employee bathroom upstairs and litterally collapsed on the ground sobbing loudly. I couldn't figure out why I was crying, what it was over, and for almost a half an hour I couldn't STOP crying. I lay there on the cold cement floor, door locked, tears falling on the ground as I stared blankly out in to space...
Now I'm in my usual after-sobbing-fest-mode of just being emotionally numb, but once I had come back to my desk finally I started writting a list, completely on a whim, of things I wanted to do before I'm 30. I figure I'll keep a copy of this post, with the list, and everytime I accopmlish something, or add something, I'll repost it...
These are long term goals to short term goals, and anything in between. I've never ever written a goal list that I meant, just done them for school asignments...but now, well...for some reason I felt like I needed it.
So...for your viewing pleasure, or whatever...
( All the things I want to do before I'm 30 )
