*bashes head aganst desk*

[jenioctavia]

I've been in tears since about 2 am last night...for two completly different reasons.
Last night I had the most god awful nightmare. I mean it was something reminicent of Resident Evil, except I didn't have any weapons to protect myself with...and it was all too real for me to take it as just a dream...
But I won't go in to that now.

Our phoneline has been shut off, thus the reason for all the problems. By the time Mom's social security comes in it'll be up to 96$ for our bill. Aaaaand my cellphone has also been shut off. Lovely hu?

We've got about 30$ to our name right now, waiting for another 30 to come from my mom's Paypal account. Seriously, this is just getting rediculous. We're barely surviving here...

I'm getting scared now...because if this is how its going to be from month to month, what's going to happen if I'm unable to get a job?

*sighs* I dunno what to write anymore...just figured I should update everyone.

I'm over at Jim's shop again, BTW...I may start bothering him for a job or something...*shakes head* I didn't know it was going to be this way...I would have stayed in Klamath had I known...

Comments

[calisasilvertai.livejournal.com]

*HUGS* I know what you mean on the financial issues, Hon. We're not having our cellphones anymore, and will need to shut off part of our internet service soon, which will mean the web pages that we host will have to move, or disappear.

You're not the only one that's been having bad dreams, recently. Check out the LJ Wiccan community: black_cats There seems to be a lot of them for anyone who's psychically open to our environmental issues. Even I've had weird ones, although not all bad.

But your useless feelings can contribute to that type of dream, too. No way to fight off danger. Been there, Sweetie, although I won't pretend to know all of what's bothering you, that can contribute to it.

[moonlightgryph.livejournal.com]

There are lots of "would have's" and "Could have's" in life. Hindsight is 20/20 and we all look back and say "I would have..." "If I would have known". But, the fact is, none of us know. We learn and grow with each experience. The good, the bad... it's all a part of learning lessons that guide us through life. And... it sucks to fall. But even that is a part of it all.

Hell, I could write a huge list of would have's and could have's... wow... So many things would be different in my life. You got me thinking about that now. *chuckles* Anyway...

As hard as it is to see right now, things will work out. One way or another, things will be okay. I know it's hard to keep trudging forward... especially in the dark. Keep going. It will be okay.

[serena-snape.livejournal.com]

Brohhhh.
(Considers saying "See? I told ya you should've stayed" but as she's writing out her thoughts, she has decided not to actually say say it. Besides, she thinks...The only reason she wanted you to stay was to have more and more whacky weird adventures. But she's not going to say this either, as once more, she's typing out her thoughts.)
Jeni, I'm sorry your life is so screwy *Huggles* Brohh. Tell Jim to give you a job. Just don't start singing the repeative redundancy song, or he might get scared.