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jenioctavia) wrote2004-01-10 07:19 pm
jenioctavia) wrote2004-01-10 07:19 pm
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Today I broke down at work.
Somewhere between the guy who got pissed off because I couldn't get him to components and decided to scream at me, and the fact that Tom decided to take off without telling me why he was leaving the phones for the sixth time that day, I just...snapped.
It must have been deathly aparent on my face that I was just going to go postal, that or Gen heard me and the customer arguing, because she came over, grabbed my sholder and nearly yanked me away from the phone, telling me to "go take a bathroom break" with this look of 'Sorry but you need it.'
So...I ran. I ran to the bathroom with my head down as the tears started falling not a foot past the E-Cage. I ran in to the employee bathroom upstairs and litterally collapsed on the ground sobbing loudly. I couldn't figure out why I was crying, what it was over, and for almost a half an hour I couldn't STOP crying. I lay there on the cold cement floor, door locked, tears falling on the ground as I stared blankly out in to space...
Now I'm in my usual after-sobbing-fest-mode of just being emotionally numb, but once I had come back to my desk finally I started writting a list, completely on a whim, of things I wanted to do before I'm 30. I figure I'll keep a copy of this post, with the list, and everytime I accopmlish something, or add something, I'll repost it...
These are long term goals to short term goals, and anything in between. I've never ever written a goal list that I meant, just done them for school asignments...but now, well...for some reason I felt like I needed it.
So...for your viewing pleasure, or whatever...
*Ride a horse again
*Get my license
*Go hang gliding
*Get my Masters in English
*Minor in Japanese language
*Travel to Japan
*Be in love
*Drop atleast 100 lbs and keep it off
*Haver another cat
*Have a romantic getaway
*Get published
*Write atleast one complete screen play
*Finish my web page
*Buy a house for Mom
*Make Matt happy for atleast one full day, no problems what so ever
*Make it to Standard mode in DDR Max 2
*Make it to Heavy mode in DDR Max 2
*Beat atleast one video game with no walk throughs, no help
*Find the star that was named after me
*Paint a canvas again
*Draw a group picture of everyone in HoggyC
*Draw a crowd of 50+ in my White Forest dream at any given time for any given reason
*Grown my hair to my hips and keep it that way for atleast 6 months
*Meet atleast one person I know from online
That's it for now. Heh...that was...semi fun. Maybe y'all should try it some time? o_o
Somewhere between the guy who got pissed off because I couldn't get him to components and decided to scream at me, and the fact that Tom decided to take off without telling me why he was leaving the phones for the sixth time that day, I just...snapped.
It must have been deathly aparent on my face that I was just going to go postal, that or Gen heard me and the customer arguing, because she came over, grabbed my sholder and nearly yanked me away from the phone, telling me to "go take a bathroom break" with this look of 'Sorry but you need it.'
So...I ran. I ran to the bathroom with my head down as the tears started falling not a foot past the E-Cage. I ran in to the employee bathroom upstairs and litterally collapsed on the ground sobbing loudly. I couldn't figure out why I was crying, what it was over, and for almost a half an hour I couldn't STOP crying. I lay there on the cold cement floor, door locked, tears falling on the ground as I stared blankly out in to space...
Now I'm in my usual after-sobbing-fest-mode of just being emotionally numb, but once I had come back to my desk finally I started writting a list, completely on a whim, of things I wanted to do before I'm 30. I figure I'll keep a copy of this post, with the list, and everytime I accopmlish something, or add something, I'll repost it...
These are long term goals to short term goals, and anything in between. I've never ever written a goal list that I meant, just done them for school asignments...but now, well...for some reason I felt like I needed it.
So...for your viewing pleasure, or whatever...
*Ride a horse again
*Get my license
*Go hang gliding
*Get my Masters in English
*Minor in Japanese language
*Travel to Japan
*Be in love
*Drop atleast 100 lbs and keep it off
*Haver another cat
*Have a romantic getaway
*Get published
*Write atleast one complete screen play
*Finish my web page
*Buy a house for Mom
*Make Matt happy for atleast one full day, no problems what so ever
*Make it to Standard mode in DDR Max 2
*Make it to Heavy mode in DDR Max 2
*Beat atleast one video game with no walk throughs, no help
*Find the star that was named after me
*Paint a canvas again
*Draw a group picture of everyone in HoggyC
*Draw a crowd of 50+ in my White Forest dream at any given time for any given reason
*Grown my hair to my hips and keep it that way for atleast 6 months
*Meet atleast one person I know from online
That's it for now. Heh...that was...semi fun. Maybe y'all should try it some time? o_o
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And so on.
<3.
When I get a car. I'll stalk a lot of my online friends. You'll see. >:o