Well... we can at least agree that we were both having a horrible time. I was trying to keep it in, you were trying to get it out, and in the end it just became a big huge mess. If I'd been honest that I wasn't feeling all that great at least then you would have known, but it was my fault for attempting to 'deal with it' on my own. I think we both have a bad habit of that.

I don't want you to be angry at me and I want to stop being upset about this whole thing. I'm not sure what else I can say about it besides "I'm sorry".